quit by simon crafts

I'm never going to quit smoking

like I'm never going to stop being poor

I need a reason to go outside

to feel simultaneously worse and better

than everything going on out there

I need a thing to do with my hands

Sometimes I pretend

I am a tourist

On this same sidewalk everyday

all my friend's teeth worsen

today I notice the trees in the plaza

were these just planted?

So it's a funny way to pass the time:

to rub up on things

for the friction

for the heat

for their resistance

and it is juvenile

it is not romantic

but it is true

that I am very tired

of talk about quitting.

when we are not actually talking about quitting

we are talking about our teeth

we are talking about regret

ever having started and later

ever having quit

when we could be talking about anything

So I do not donate to the fight to the end of cancer

at Walgreens I'm too broke and besides

they're not looking for a cure

so what am I buying?

A fight?

they don't sell cigarettes at Walgreens

And it doesn't feel bad to admit

I'm not such a good person

neither are you

we don't have to be

it doesn't have to be such a good life

to enjoy it